Bethelon

Yep, there has been a lot of changes since my last update. I should write more journals here. I'm sorry I sorta focus on FA and Tumblr. So anyways... some of the huge changes are that I went to anthrocon. I visited New York City <333 I'm legal-er, I'm starting to drive and I'm about to move ti Wisconsin. So, I'm exited about that. I should post more stuff on DA, but I've been focusing on FA content and stuff that I can make money from. I mean, I'm actually making a living from drawing, which is amazing. I would like to make a career out of it and be more professional about it.

Also, I would like to say thanks to everyone that wished me a happy birthday. I really love you guys <3333 It meant a lot that you guys remember ;w; I also feel bad for not being such an active deviant, even though, I still draw and I would like to think that I'm better at it <3 Anyways, I'll keep you guys posted about more stuff and I'll definitely post more art here. Clean art >w>

For those that are interested here's my tumblr: libra-11.tumblr.com/ its NSFW so, watch out and have NOPE button handy: linustechtips.com/main/uploads…

(b) Personal note/b) I would like to pen this journal in a letter of apology. I've failed to meet my own standards of efficiency and work ethic that (I would like to be know for)  I set for me. I would like to have a certain set of standards that I would like to follow to manufacture delicious artings for you guys. I believe that I haven't done such a good job at it. I haven't posted as much as I would like to. My projected goal was to at least post something everyday, or at least something every 2 or 3 days. This lack of activity is inexcusable because I have more then enough computing power and the talent to do this. The problem is my laziness and I dare say... lack of motivation. (But, that's a whole other problem that I'm trying to solve.)  

Its just hard to keep several sites updated all at once. It is a challenge, yes! But, its a doable challenge. I want to keep pumping out art at you guys as much as possible. Like I said, I would like to be more professional about my arting and all around everything else in between too. I haven't been as professional about myself or anything else in a while. So, I have taken steps on fixing this problem as of last night. So, there will be noticeable changes really soon >;3

I would like to apologize for the lack of updates. Its not laziness kicking back into me. >w< Don't worry about that. I just felt a bit of a mid life crisis of sorts. I was depressed for a week. To make a emo-sob story short...
the issue was that all my friends have either done more and achieved way more than I've have since I graduated from high school. Yes, I had my share of jobs a odd jobs. but, I just didn't feel happy. My friends have either enlisted into the military or almost done with college. That realization kinda hit me hard. I fell into a depression for a week. I was sick and grumpy early December. That's why I didn't update as much that on DA and other gallery sites.

Thanks for a really good friend, I was able to change my life. It wasn't him that encouraged me, it was the offer. I'm the type that needs a goal, a visible challenge. My friend is.. well... was now part of the IYAOYAS crew of the U.S.S Abraham Lincoln (I think). He is one of my closest friends and I can't help but to admire the guy. He has done more in the four years after graduation that I have done throughout my entire life. So, that's that I'm in now. Don't worry I'm not enlisted in the Navy. I'm going to a gym now, and with his help. I'll turn the left over flab that I haven't been able to get rid of, into muscle mass. Working out has helped me to over come my depression and confidence issues. Yeah, but I feel like I trade emotional pain for physical. but, I honestly think that its was a fair trade to be honest. I rather have sore arms and legs than feel like I did when I was depressed.

I hope that I wont go through that hissy-fit again. I will resume normal activities and most more and more on DA. I feel like I think I need to remind everyone that my main account is still on FA. That's where I would update the fastest. But, I will not forget my friends on DA and I will never again take any of the gallery sites for granted. *hugs* Another hope that I have is that everyone on DA had a Merry Christmas. I certainty had a good one. I did trade a new i-pod for a local gym membership I thought it was a good idea. I rather invest in the future.

I also wish everyone a happy new year as well. Also, I'll open commissions on DA by 01/01/13

I would like to wish everyone a happy late thanksgiving. Lol, I know that mine was nice. Not as awkward as thought it would and better yet, it was just my parents and I. My immediate family here, well... They would love nothing more than to wish that we were dead. Yeah, my family is mostly a collection of sociopaths and psychopaths. Honestly... wait... nvm, my other uncle did go to jail once. Yeah, I know many of you have family that genuinely loves each other. But, mine... yeah, the best I can expect from them is that they fake getting along for the sake of the holiday. Yet, not even that's possible anymore. I've lost my faith in my own family at this point.

I'm not sad or depressed to be honest. Its just one of those facts of life that I've learned to live with. Like America's "democracy", that ebay steals your money, and that there's no god. Sorry about that last one, if you believe in God that's fine. But, personally, I lost my faith in a supernatural god of any sorts. But, moving from the rather sad parts, I want to say that [actually] everything's been looking good so far. A lot of good opportunities opened up for me. All I have to do is wait to see what will happen. I feel confident that things will get better for me and my friends. That's is, if planet Nibiru doesn't crash down on us. Lol XD

Also, I have more arts that I'll post soon ;3 So I'll keep you posted about those. Also, I'll continue to post more arts here and hope to start taking commissions on DA, just as soon as I get my prices thing fixed up >w<

My last journal was not meant to stir hate or controversy. I mean... that's not what purpose of what the journal was. I didn't pose names but some of the readers identified who I was talking about. So this is a bit of an apology to Anon about not stating the facts of his situation. I didn't have the full picture and I prematurely came to a wrongful conclusion which portrayed Anon as insane >w<. Anon is not crazy, he's just going through a very stressful time and I just happened to catch him during a bad day.

So, I want to take my last journal back. I didn't mean any insult toward Anon. He's fine, he's just solving issues with family and his personal life. I want let everyone know that I don't like to cause drama. Life is too short to dwell into the dramatic. I'm sorry if my last journal was interpreted as stirring up drama. I wrote it as a record so other people could learn from what I thought was Anon's mistake. The reason I wrote  was because, I lived through something similar. My parents brought me to the US when I was 10 years old. We were here for almost 11 years and my parents didn't once tried to fix my papers so I can be legal in the US. They just sat back and hoped/prayed for our situation to just magically solve itself. That type of thinking almost brought us to the edge of failure, bankruptcy, and almost death (if we were ever going to get deported)

I was down, I was over weight, not really legal in the US, I didn't see a future for me. But, I said no, then I saw the precipice and I didn't want to take one more step. I decided to not trust my life in the hand of others or in faith that some how it'll magically fix itself. I first concentrated into losing weight. At the start of this year I weighted about 280+ lbs >w< thanks to dieting, exercise and complete lack of my health or safety I was able to lose 80lbs
by July of this year. Meanwhile I did research into the immigration process and with many disappointments, I heard of a theoretical way to become legal but it would not happen till August of this year. Thankfully as an election year, Obama made that path a reality as the deferment action program of the Dream Act. I applied to it as soon as possible, my parents were very supportive. Thinking that this was an act of god, they paid for half, but I had to pay for the other  half to get the actual papers >w< the first half was the attorney himself. My share was around $700.

Lol, so I literally drew myself into a path of citizenship. My dad is now a resident and about 4 more years I will be too. but wit the deferment action program I'll be legible to have a driver's license, have work (that's why I drew and not got an actual job ) and now I'm on my way to legalization. Finally, I can stop worrying about my legal situation ^^
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I'll post me-art in between, but commissioned comics are an absolute priority.  Also as a secondary priority is to fix my commissioning system and make it easier. I know that people don't even bother reading journals so I'll a standard posted example of commission types and their prices, along with ref-she prices and comics examples and comics.

Also as an update, the plan is to double the ram of my computer from 5GBs to 10GBs. the plan failed because of mother board issues thanks to www.furaffinity.net/user/count… and www.furaffinity.net/user/draco… for their help and Duraji for the computer RAM. It was able to increase the RAM by 1GB so its not a total loss >w< but this means that I definitely need to replace my computer.